I still remember exactly where I was. I was in 11th grade, Mr. Levan's physics class. We had just changed classes, and a kid came in and told the teacher to change the channel to CNN. He had been watching it in his previous class. It was so strange. That day had started off like every other day. Nothing different. It really gave a new meaning to me at least, to the phrase, "in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye". In less than an hour's time... things changed drastically. I had no clue this was coming. Actually, I had never even heard of terrorism before that I could remember, as my Mom didn't like us to watch the news and be up on world events, mostly because she knew it would give me one more thing to worry about. Because indeed, I am a worrier. For the entire day we were glued to the TV, no matter what class we were in, we just sat there and watched it. It was truly a day like no other.

For a long time, I didn't realize JUST how much it had affected me. But then I was thinking about it last night. Coincidentally, last night I booked a flight for Robert and I for our trip to MI in two weeks. We had actually decided to drive only because the cheapest fares we could find were going to be like $600 or $700 for both of us to go round trip. So we decided $200 in gas and taking my car was going to be a better option. That is until around 9:15 last night I found out if I booked a lifhgt for us before 10pm we could both go round trip from Orlando for less than $200. So now the flights are booked and paid for, and the nervousness was starting to sink in. And I thought, "What if there are terrorists?" what if... what if... what if. And then I thought about this passage, which I often do when I am having a cow over something I should not:

25"(AF)For this reason I say to you, do not be (AG)worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?

26"(AH)Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?

27"And who of you by being (AI)worried can (AJ)add a single hour to his life?

28"And why are you (AK)worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,

29yet I say to you that not even (AL)Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.

30"But if God so clothes the (AM)grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? (AN)You of little faith!

31"Do not (AO)worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?'

32"For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for (AP)your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.

33"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and (AQ)all these things will be added to you.

34"So do not (AR)worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

And I have come to this conclusion. I am not in control. God is in control, whether I am in a plane, a car, a bus, a train, walking, or riding on the back of a wildebeest. If it is God's plan that I am to die, it won't matter where I am or how I am traveling. And if it is God's plan that I live, it won't matter where I am or how I am traveling. If God created me, SURELY he can keep me safe! Seriously, where was my faith? I think it was in some false notion that if I am driving, somehow, I can save myself. Silly me.

So there you have it.

Today is the anniversary of a very tragic day in our nation's history. It shows how quickly things we aren't expecting can come upon us. I am sure that judgment day shall be just as surprising and unexpected. But if I trust in the one that created me, I have nothing to be afraid of. So I am going to put on my big girl panties and trust in God.